Honesty to the fullest extent

<*SIGH*>
Man, I really suck as a daughter of the Most High, The King Of Kings and The Lord Of Lords,the One And Only Savior and Lord Jesus.
Man if He is all these things I say He is then why is it that I struggle with so many things of this world?
Why is it that I let myself neglect my relationship with Him so much.
As of lately I have been struggling with a few things and it really hurts me to know that I am doing or not doing the very things I encourage other beleivers to do or not to do.
Such as my devotions in the morning and night. as of lately I haven't been doing them. And believe me when people say you can see a difference in your life when you don't they were telling the truth. Now don't intrupret that as "oh my gosh Jen dosent love the Lord, orJen is a backslider" or any other crap like this. Its not that I don't want to its just that life has been so crazy busy lately that its like as soon as I wake up there is something I have to be doing as soon a I wake up and then usually I am so tired that I pass out at night before I can even think about my devo. and honestly I can feel the distance between the Lord and I and its very disheartening.
I know that this all up to me and my choice. I know that I can change this and everyday I set out to change it and actually spend time with my Jesus but it seems like every day it stays the same.No matter how much I set my heart on change. Its like that quote "If the enemy can't get in your life any other way he will keep you busy"(or something to that extent) and I feel like that is what it is. but that is not an excuse just what I feel is happening. and I intent to chnage that.and I say all of this not to be judged or to get sympathy but to ask that you would pray for me,that the enemy would stop tring to put a wedge between me adnd God and that I would wake up every morning and go to bed with some sweet fellowship with my Lord and Savior Jesus!